Blunt... / Saturday, October 11, 2008
SteVvY,
Do u really understand what she's trying to say to you via msn and sms?
All those long messages saying about Him? How he is not content to leave us, or making us feel changes thats out of your comfort zone?
That You should resent about it? Since it helps you to grow?
Really i think You're a dumbass, calling out for help.. yet discarding any forms of help from anyone.
What are you searching for?
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Feeling lost, feeling frustrated... Feeling like i'm drowning.
Of all the people, why does she make it so blunt to me? I really want to listen to her.. yet again.. i dont feel like it. Might have told her off once or twice, making her sad or angry or dissapointed.
I wont be heeding your advices my Angel, if you're reading this. But they are kept in within me.
I really miss Mom, so hard so much... its tougher to talk about it than to write it.
I feel so lost, yet people depend on me.. why? Isnt there someone that can take over me?
You speak of life being more important, i Agree! but whats the point when everything has already gone wrong? I live in despair, in guilt.
What would you do, if I chose death over living? or Living over death?
If you truly are someone that wants to help, you would listen to my wishes right?
"I'm strong on the surface
but not all the way through...
I've never been perfect
but neither have you"
/this is the me in I.
11:22 PM
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