Clinging on... / Monday, October 06, 2008
Ever since the last post, i've been trying my best to hang onto something..
to make sure i can see the next day... which never ever happens, i never want to do that.. but yet it happened...
The week has been tough, tough enough for me to even lift a finger and speak to myself.
Many things are going on, so much i cant handle. Dropping them bit by bit already,
UT starts tomorrow, dont even feel like studying for it... and it has to be done... Zzz
Angel called me yesterday... cryin and all... hearing her makes me feel wierd... lost and didnt know what to do... then again it was funny... hearing her snorting her nose, blowing her nose..
haa..
She kinda knows when i'm most frustrated and buzz me a little... even though she is frustrated herself.. she's simply god sent...
After her call, i just couldnt get myself to sleep, thinking about mom.. missing her and all...
Month of my fullest regrets, my nightmares. If i had 1 wish, i would really wish i could turn back the time where i was 12 and undo my wrongs, my hurtful gestures to her... Everytime i think about my past i think about how i sadden her day her week her month her year.. I was not partially to blame but mainly to!
Why was i so? I'll never know... Why did i ever do those things, i wish i knew...
/this is the me in I.
10:48 PM
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