The End arrives... / Monday, December 15, 2008
The end of year finally arrives, and my 3 week holidays have started...
finally a good time to rest... or is it...?
Work starts again... i guess... if not where to find the money to eat and play?
Havent been doing so well lately... got shortness of breath...
Headaches coming on and off...
Stomach pains...
They dont really bother me atucally...
What bothers me the most? Sheryl affected by stomach flu again...
wonder why she has this problem on and on again...
vomitting, inability to eat properly... etc etc..
Prays that she get well soon, get stronger everyday.
Mom, please look after Sheryl, i've done my best.. i cant take it anymore...
the war between Dad and Sis seems to never end... and i'm caught in the middle...
Sigh... i dont know how much longer i can take before i break down again and idle to rott...
Angel says that i should enjoy life, the life our father, the lord made for us. Made in the image of himself...
How can i enjoy? How can i let go? I'm holding onto a rope that never breaks, but i'm on the other end... if i let go, everything that the rope i'm holding... where will it go? How will it fall?
Still dont have the courage to go against you my angel.. i will hold onto this rope till i fail..
A dream i once had.. turns into a nightmare i never want...
A life i seek for.. never becomes light at all...
Every step i take leads me never to return...
The past i regret till date, i swear i will never forget..
/this is the me in I.
3:30 AM
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