to hold On or Let go? / Thursday, December 04, 2008
Its been such a tiring week, sleeping hours been so off again.. and i've not been getting the right amount nor proper sleep.. cant wait for the weekends for a long long long rest...
UTs have been sucky.. so dissapointed with myself..
also pocket's been abit dry... hitting a bad start with the cash flow... maybe its time to restart working which would prolly kill my remaining energy...
or its back to grass...
Been thinking so hard about whether i'm doing the right thing or not, has caused my dreams to really start to look weird.. dreams of free falling where theres no end.. or drowning in the sea..
I'm prolly just imagining things.. and am at the crossroad thinking where to go next...
I'm just so tired.. of everything... of myself..
Dear Lord, i seek you for strength, the strength i need to walk this path on...
I'm searching for a new life.. one that has warmth and smiles abound...
Life's been a challange lately, and i'd hope for a turn around.. amen
Mom, its been a while... i miss what it feels like to be beside you...
I feel so lost.. and so undetermined.. I've lost my footing in the world..
If you're looking after Sheryl, she's becoming so cute so playful..
I miss the way you call her cheeky bombom, and the way you would play with her..
really wish i could see it all over again..
You lived such a hard life, yet i was never there for you as you Son...
i never had the chance to make you happy.. you deserved so much better..
The year is soon coming to an end..
Life hasnt changed at all..
I hafnt changed 1 bit.. sigh...
so I'm standing still... waiting for the time to be taken...
/this is the me in I.
12:26 AM
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