Pain... i still feel it.... / Thursday, January 15, 2009
It seems that my body is taking the damage further...
Fell victim to flu twice in a row...
Getting breathless easier....
Chest pains are more prominant even when lying down...
Eyes feels like popping out... and kinda have some sort of swell...
Everytime i blink it hurts, everytime i shut my eyes it throbs...
But what can i complain? I love the pain...
At least, its close by... however it lets me know i'm alive...
There seems to be lesser talk at home....
Dad reaches home, slams his room door, and stays in...
Sis just wants to get out of his sight and be with her BF as much as possible...
Seems like this year's CNY reunion dinner will look very dull and dim....
Where what used to be a long term steam boat may look to become a 1 day thing...
Where the table was full of life, may turn out lifeless...
If time were to heal all wounds, it certainly will not take scars away...
So I'm willing to give up my life for happiness..
But who's gonna sell trade something like that?
I seek no answers, and ask not for the riches..
"Perhaps time is a type of cure
But it can also be poison that I am taking right now
If I can't see your smile,
How can I get to sleep?
Your voice is so near yet I can't hold you
The sun will still spin without the earth
I can still walk by myself without a reason"
Jay Chow - Rainbow
Mom, how are you?
I believe you've heard..
Your son aint taking it well...still
I've seen better days... and resent that i've not kept them well....
I want to wake up from this nightmare....
But how am i sure that it'll be fine after i wake up?
I'm feeling empty...
I'm still here though theres not a reason...
Waiting in line...
/this is the me in I.
11:43 PM
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