All my fault... / Sunday, March 29, 2009
To see me speaking to myself here agian..
it would only mean that something bad has happened...
The 1st thing i'll do if she ever reads this blog.. is to apologize to her...
I'm sorry my love.. i've done many things i shouldnt...
I'm always making you pissed off, dissapointed and sad...
And when i see you cry or in pain.. it makes my heart stop...
I don't know what to do..
Each and every tear you've wept for me has became a scar for me...
I've felt so dissapointed with myself with all your occurances with guys around you...
espcially PS.. He even bought u durian puffs and brought flowers to your office...
I guess compared to him, i'm not even the tip of the iceberg...
I'm feeling insecure of myself... i dont want to make you feel doubt me...
Niether do i want to break your heart again...
I want to tell you to get over me... but i just cant make myself to do it...
Cause I love you Michelle...
'Everytime i close my eyes...
I feel how fast the time would fly..
I just wanna hold you by my side,
and tell you i still love you while you're in sight...
Instead all i do is to make you cry...
everytime i would wanna die. '
Mom, just not too long ago..
i've met my new love of my life...
and even before i could make things settle down...
I destroyed the relationship that we were having...
I dunno why this is happening...
I'm quite sure if u were here to read this, you'll prolly be laughing it off
telling me, everythin will be fine...
but right now? i cant sleep... i'm waiting for her reply...
i know its not gonna happen.. so i'd just stay home and die...
Mom, o how i've missed you...
where have you been?
i'm still waiting for you...
Speak to me... talk to me..
Sis is having alot of stress, from work from sheryl and from her ex husband...
worst of all? Sheryl is sick again... but she's out of house at sis Bf's place?
Look over them mom.. you need not protect me..
i'm not worthy of it...
Mom, i love you, i miss you...
/this is the me in I.
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