The good ends.. the Bad continues... / Sunday, April 05, 2009
after the smash...
i didnt want to stay at home...
so i met up with bros and sis to whack a few pins...
did crappily... and then i sprained my back..
I wanna close my eyes to sleep....
but i wanna say i love you, to darl...
but sms comes in to say, he's around..
argH
i'm sounding more and more like a baby....
i dunno... i feel damn insecure...
but i dont want any supporT!
just leave me alone.. let me fret let my soul burn..
there was nothing in the beginning to burn with anyway...
Punish me lord, i've done many bad things i know...
Take all thier pains and give it to me...
Darl's headache and backpains...
Sis's stress
Sheryl's flu and nasal canal infection
I'll take em...
I'm tired.. i want to sleep... back is killing me...
and i just cant sleep...sigh....
Mom, at supper..
someone ordered a bowl of oat...
reminds me of the days you couldnt take solid foods...
you had oats for breakfasts and lunches...
i know they were tasteless cos u'd always ask dad for sugar..
or something sweet to drink.... but u couldnt take em
i weeped as i sat next to you seeing u eat with pain...
and hearing the food was immediately passed through to your colestomy bag...
u'd moan and groan about it, and directly after food u'd try to sleep...
but the pains kept u awake...
i could hear you scream and shout about it... but i couldnt do anything else to help..
the pain u suffered was not fair.. not 1 bit...
Every second feels like months, every minutes feels like years...
knowing that i cant be there right beside you makes me want you even more...
My heart aches, every breath feels heavier...
I know you're feeling this pain as I am too...
Be strong.. take care of yourself...
/this is the me in I.
1:53 AM
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