In my mind... / Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Its nearly the full moon...
and even before that i've felt totally helpless....
I've got better from the back ache..
managed to walk a lil better...
sit a lil longer...
That aside.. i still feel pain from my heart.. and mind...
It gets harder and harder to sleep each night...
Every single time i close my eyes...
I see what i do not want to see...
I know these are mind games... but i cant control it...
Its showing what i dont want to see..
I feel helpless... and bare...
I've lost my remaining confidence..
now faith is haunting me... since i've lost it a long time ago...
I want to wish, hope and dream about something good...
but i know you can't get what you want
unless you work for it....
Time feels like it stops everytime i don't see or hear her...
but feels short when i do...
And right now..
the only reason i want to breathe...
and feel my heartbeat
is because i still love her...
i know she does to..
I try to sleep...
but my thoughts are all about you..
I miss all the time we've spent together...
Every second without you is killing me...
and yearn for you to be right here...
/this is the me in I.
5:22 AM
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