Time heals and hurts, yet its never enough.... / Wednesday, April 29, 2009
An amazingly rushed day...
Rushed for school from waking up late...
Rushed for today's problem statement as there
was a module briefing to attend...
After school its SLA for school...
All this rushing made wanna stand still
and think.. is this all worth it?
Time is gonna be tough on me soon...
I'm feeling weaker.. haven't had a good meal
for quite a while... haven't had a good sleep...
for quite a while...
My diet is prolly killing me.. as i've felt today...
But i really don't care...
Its almost a month, since we parted our ways...
The things back then and now totally seemed different
Its getting harder to tell myself not to miss you...
And every minute you struggle with work.. makes me feel again helpless...
I was unable to help you... I am still unable to help you...
I was never able to remove your problems...
I don't even dare chat with you like we used to...
Even before we were together...
afraid he'll check on you...
Afraid to sms or call you... cause i know i'd be a bother to you...
Unlike him calling or smsing you, on our days together...
I'd let you answer him.. cause i know... i wasn't enough...
Darling.. i've missed you so much...
Every night i'll look at the bottle of Cologne you got me...
and I sit at the corner of my bed... holding back the memories...
Your work has been a heavy load lately...
Please take care of yourself..
I will not be a bother to you anymore..
I will shut myself away from you..
and I pray he'll treat you better and so does his family...
I still and will miss you...
Waiting for your love to return...
Although i know we're through...
I'm back to where we first begun..
I seek your face even more as the day goes by...
I've given and done my everything...
However now, each night... i can only to myself.. lie...
/this is the me in I.
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