Who am i? Where am i....? / Monday, April 20, 2009
Back to where i started from a year ago...
I walk this lonely road, ever since so long ago...
Its empty.. and i'm the only one...
Back still hurts...
Knee starts to do so too again...
What else can i do? Pain tells me i'm alive..
School starts in about 8 hours time...
and here i am still thinking about darling...
Even though she told me to dream about her...
I have not had a single dream, not even a nightmare for 4 years...
My heart's feeling very very shallow...
Am i thinking too much?
Cos i'm feeling our distance...
Please never let me go... i'm ashamed of feeling like this..
I've not lost trust..
I just dunno where i am now...
nor who i am...
I seek answers again.. for a long time..
Will they come to me? I'll never know...
But i know, you'll always be my darling..
Was told to pray for my parents..
With our neigbours in church...
However she was a new to me...
Couldnt utter a word about how its goin in at home..
Cant believe i lied in the presence of you Lord...
But i know, u know.. how i feel...
Trying to hold my tears as she prayed
to love and to appreciate them....
I wanna tell myself to hang on...
and keep waiting...
Things will turn out fine!
But how will i believe myself?
So far this holiday.. hasnt been that great...
My dearest friends... if i needed support...
Which of you would lend a hand?
Cause i'm breaking down.. and i dont think i'll resurface anytime soon..
/this is the me in I.
12:40 AM
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