Nothing's going right... / Tuesday, June 23, 2009
sigh...
ever since Sheryl had chicken pox..
i've been afraid of getting it...
and now that sis caught it...
although she has recovered from the poxxing,
it seems that it has affected her via the nuerons...
Sis's going through a tough time recovering..
Its a tough sight...
the way she reacts and looks right now reminds me
about Mom, 2 years ago...
saying she'd just wanna die so the pain will go away...
Why couldnt it have had been me who has this pox?
So that sis wont suffer like that?
I'm praying hard that she recovers well...
and from everything around..
I'm having lots of sleepless nights...
and unable to wake up for school..
Losing alot from school now...
surely my grades are down the drain now...
Just too ignorant to do anything else...
even for school..
I'm glad i've so many friends who'd stand by me..
if i'm about to fall...
but i know.. i wont ask from them...
if i were to fall.. i'd just drown...
Its ok if i were to lose everything..
I'm already content with what i have...
Tho i have no aim.. and no reason to live,
i shouldnt be a part of anyone's problems.
Please lord, take everyone's problems away..
and heal my sis..
i'll take her place if i could and you would..
I dont ask for much.. but these..
I'm baring and theres nothing left i know...
theres an urge to quit school now...
since my pocket's dry..
My heart's empty and my mind's wiped..
Nobody wants to be alone...
so do i..
I’ve been caught sideways out here on the crossroads
Trying to buy back the pieces I lost of my soul
It’s hard when the devil won’t get off your back
It’s like carrying around the past in a hundred pound sack
/this is the me in I.
3:30 AM
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