Recalling.... / Thursday, June 25, 2009
I've been so tired lately, everytime i sit down
i'd fall asleep...
And then theres that buzzing in my ear...
Yet to still go grab my referral to TTSH for my knee that has recovered...
then it brought back something i didnt want to remember...
the reason i was even there..
Been having weird sights during my sleep about me
being with someone...
doing things i wouldnt have done..
and i realised, i've did just that, not too long ago.
I'd writhe in pain but theres other things i need to tend to first..
Then looking through my sms-es..
I believed to have felt so happy in this year...
and knowing it would have ended in the same year...
i saw the sms-es sent by darl, and i've wondered
did i really do all those things for her?
There was 1, that told me to leave my mark,
which i responded with an engagement ring.. too farfetched uh?
so it turned down to the Tiff n Co ring that I've stashed away..
it was bought as a set, proof of us being together.
Only to know soon after, the ring was pointless.
So i placed my mark, which wasnt on permanant ink ha..
Tho it aches to see those sms-es, it does tell me I was well loved...
am not sure if i did the things correctly or not,
but i know now, it was never meant to be that simple.
Wonder if i can delete those memories, if i delete those sms-es...
I want to look back now.. but it seems impossible..
I tried moving forward, then i felt the pulling in my chest..
Whats going on?
Sis is looking alot better now.. eating and moving much more..
I believe she'll be all healed soon, however she needs to go job hunting
soon again.. haiz..
Guess these things just never ends uh?
Death until the dust, and i'm waiting
Ruined in the rust, of my craving
It feels like, it feels like
I did'nt know the cost, of my betrayal?
I'm the one that's lost, I'm gonna fail
It feels like, it feels like I'm gasping with all my might
/this is the me in I.
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