Regrets steps in... / Friday, July 31, 2009
Its been a wonderful week and i belive its going strong...
Had a blast from the school event as an emcee, host for the club's singing competition...
However, being heavy hearted lately, and things are pilling up...
I've not been able to control my emotions, and things are getting out of hands...
Unable to concentrate in class, not progressing even the slightest...
Temper's starting to grow, and to prevent it from going wrong i've laid down my decision.
Yeap.. i gave up being the host, thier emcee... i know its a tough decision.
I know it hurts the people who have fought so hard for this event, and everyone has worked so hard for it.
It feels just not too long ago, i remembered i said yes i'll do it...
and took on the role as webmaster as well. All these things has taken its toll on me, and i've felt rage calling.
I've yet to scream, but really dont want to. I've the urge to yell, but noone's there there to hear.
With my imaginations and emotionsrunning wild
Fueling my frustrations like a fire burning
It has gotten under my skin
/this is the me in I.
12:56 AM
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The Passing wind, the loss of time... / Monday, July 27, 2009
Time has been going oh so fast...
Keeping myself in check with things to do,
has taken a far more than i usually allow...
Am i really helping out too much?
Again, whether or not i chose to do it...
i have no regrets...
Its a pleasure to assist and help...
and its hard to say no when I really dont want to...
How'd i know why i always pick up the things people cant do...
and try to resolve it..
Its just a while more and i have to assist for a club in school to host
thier annual singing competition...
really feeling the jitters now.. wonder why.. haa.
Cant really remember my script.. hah, so its time to improvise...
feeling a lil down and lost lately...
but too buzy to sit back and think about it...
for now, all i can do is live through it a bit and wonder later on..
I'm just one of the countless pieces that makes up this world, but where do I stand?
Right now everything does not seems to makes sense to me at all
Uninstall
/this is the me in I.
1:29 AM
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With hands all full... / Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Its been quite a while for me to have time to do this...
no not complaining...
rather a real 'update' on this blog...
I'd love to complain right now, but i'm just too tired to do so....
UT2 just completed... and my UT1 are BBB B+ , average scoring...
hopfully my UT2s would have a couple of As.
International Students Club I-Star2009 is coming up...
its a singing competition but i aint a participant, but thier host/emcee...
then again, i just lost my voice and having the flu now...
think can tahan ma?
Right after thier auditions which ended yesterday, i had to prep the website
and photos for it.
Hoping that everything goes well, and i'll catch some early shut eyes tonight...
Lastly... i've been seeing darling in pain lots of it...
i pray that it goes well for her, peservere darling, you gotta...
Desktop com is really screaming at me now.. shutting myself off now..
Theres nothing left in this soul to say...
Theres nothing in this empty heart to borrow..
I've always been searching for an easier way...
But then again i wonder if i'll be here tomorrow...
/this is the me in I.
6:40 PM
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feeling is like before the storm... / Friday, July 03, 2009
right now,
everythin seems to be going damn well...
other than being tired, theres nothin i'd wanna complain about..
UT2 are coming, which also means we've almost completed Sem1 soon..
its already week 9 of the term.
However school's measure for H1N1 really sucks...
not only has it escalated to over 90 cases, they shortened and
have a time limit window for each year students for thier break outs.
If we were to be affected, these so called precautionary wouldnt make a diff..
beh, who cares..
Feeling overwhelmed, I take a dive
To a once overfilled but now empty place to hide.
The day you turned on me is the day I died,
And I've forgotten what it's like,
And how it feels to be alive.
/this is the me in I.
2:01 AM
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