October... / Monday, October 19, 2009
Never really liked this month, not mainly just because i'll be getting older soon...
But i reminds me of much things in the past..
where i started to dislike that certain day...
Mom.. Its your birthday soon... And i never could remember how many times we celebrated as a family..
Sigh....
This year... 2009, bad year.. + bad month...
So many of my friends having a harsh and bad time...
And all i could do is sit by thier side listening to thier story...
I'd tried to help... but what else is there i can do?
I'm a broken hearted man.. and my pockets are broken with holes...
I lost my trust in someone I thought i was well of with...
totally dissapointed with what people can do...*refer to previous post*
Now i'm looking back.. at the times i seek answers....
at the time i seek help...
but couldnt speak nor shout for one...
I'm depressed from my friend's problems and my own...
Where should i start to find the strength to carry on,
I'm soul-less, my heart's broken... and i lost my reason in life...
"Tonight the sunset means so much...
the one thing that you know you'll never touch.
Like the feeling, the real thing
I reach out for that sweet Dream...
But somehow the darkness wakes me up.
And i've felt this emptiness before...
but all the times that i've been broken...
I still run right back for more"
/this is the me in I.
1:40 AM
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Year 2, Sem 2... / Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Yea.. holidays ended, Sem 2 started...
looking at the harder modules now...
even though i got an award for Acad Excellence? haha..
Seems like october is really gonna be a very very buzy month for me...
Also, i'm dead broke....
Need to find a way to make my desktop live longer or to change it...
then my Sunglasses kinda gave way =\
bills are piling up...
I ran across her blog to find a new link on it.
Gee, how blind was i to believe what she said..
I ever told her, i don't wanna make the wrong choice,
and now i realised i have.
I wonder now, can i be heartless enough to place her out of mind, since she's already out of sight?
I presume she does not know how i felt so she made that silly and ignorable "I'll be back" haha...
Owell, time i threw away the pieces i was carefully trying to fix and see to it that i WONT be affected by her or with the things she said.
Congrats with what you're having =), if you even ever read this blog anymore.
/this is the me in I.
8:23 PM
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