October... / Monday, October 19, 2009
Never really liked this month, not mainly just because i'll be getting older soon...
But i reminds me of much things in the past..
where i started to dislike that certain day...
Mom.. Its your birthday soon... And i never could remember how many times we celebrated as a family..
Sigh....
This year... 2009, bad year.. + bad month...
So many of my friends having a harsh and bad time...
And all i could do is sit by thier side listening to thier story...
I'd tried to help... but what else is there i can do?
I'm a broken hearted man.. and my pockets are broken with holes...
I lost my trust in someone I thought i was well of with...
totally dissapointed with what people can do...*refer to previous post*
Now i'm looking back.. at the times i seek answers....
at the time i seek help...
but couldnt speak nor shout for one...
I'm depressed from my friend's problems and my own...
Where should i start to find the strength to carry on,
I'm soul-less, my heart's broken... and i lost my reason in life...
"Tonight the sunset means so much...
the one thing that you know you'll never touch.
Like the feeling, the real thing
I reach out for that sweet Dream...
But somehow the darkness wakes me up.
And i've felt this emptiness before...
but all the times that i've been broken...
I still run right back for more"
/this is the me in I.
1:40 AM
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